blurry. out of focus.
I thought I should delete it.
but wait. maybe not.
this picture is kinda accurate.
it’s messed up. it’s imperfect. it’s not like I think it should be. sounds familiar.
sounds like me, honestly. I want everything so clear and perfect. If I could just have a set of rules to follow, or my life all perfectly mapped out with a route to travel through–then day by day I wouldn’t have to obsess with what could go wrong.
I want clarity–Jesus says “just come.”
“come and embrace the blurry and trust ME.”
we don’t need clarity. but we do need to be FOCUSED.
we don’t need to know our tomorrow. but we do need to know our King.
Oh what a relief, we don’t have to do it all, be it all, or know it all. Because the One who knows ALL has our hearts firmly grasped in His hands. And this is the amazing thing:
He is never going to let go of your heart.
for eternity and ages on.
and there’s something even greater. He’s chasing you. He’s pursuing you in your mess. In your confusion He is running after your heart. He is yearning for you. He is jealous for you. His love for you is beyond anything you could ever have the strength to fathom.
whisper it again and again to your heart until you sing for joy. until it pours over your being and until His love consumes you.
His love is REAL. His grace is REAL. It’s powerful. It’s beautiful. It’s incomparable.
You know that blurry situation you’ve got? That uncertainty that’s trapping the air out of your lungs? He wants you to come tell Him.
Sit down. With no one around. Tell him your blurry mess. Ask Him to simply invade it with the calm clearness of his presence. You might not have a clear view of where you’re at, but He will give you a clear view of Himself.
And that is all you need.
That is all I need.
That in our blurry mess, His grace could never be clearer. It’s pouring down, it never runs out, and He is using our mess to bring us closer to Him. Because that fullness-that closeness to Jesus- that’s what we were made for.
Our prayer for more of you, Lord:
Just to know more of you Jesus! There is nothing greater. No higher privilege in all of the universe than to walk daily with You, King Jesus. Let our lives flow as beautiful rivers of praise to your Holy Name. You are so beautiful, Jesus. Might we reflect your beauty and wholeness and peace to a world so broken and void of light. You are the light. And in your light we find the life we need. We find the radiance of your countenance and it lifts ours. We are filled. We are satisfied in You because You are more than enough. More than all the world has to offer, greater than the cloudy containers of our mind and of uncertainty. We’re grasping, we’re yearning, we’re expecting more of You this day. Do your work in our blurry world. And Jesus we don’t want clarity, so much as we want more of You.