What does it mean to be human?
Some days we don’t even know ourselves.
Sometimes I think we get it engrained in our heads that once you know Christ, it’s all smooth sailing from there. That all of the sudden you are this picture of perfection and somehow attain super-human status.
But today I was encapsulated by immeasurable joy when I realized something that is true of me and every single person:
We are simply human.
We are not strong on our own. We honestly can’t do anything from an eternal perspective on our own. I can’t even breathe on my own. I forget a lot of things. I get distracted like you wouldn’t believe. I fold to pressures. I know what it’s like to feel free. I hate that I struggle with fear. I love something one day and despise it the next.
I am simply human.
Beautifully human with the ability to think and feel joy and pain and to breathe in this very moment.
Perfectly human. Fraught with imperfections and feelings I can’t even find a definition for.
This means that my relationship with God? It’s an imperfect mess of good days and bad ones.
This means that my relationships with people? They’re filled with actions and words I wish I could take back.
This means that my patience to wait on God’s promises? Eh, it’s a little thin.
I just wish we could all understand that it’s not up to us. That you are an incredibly messy, imperfect, human. You are not a lousy Christian. You are human.
And your humanness is beautiful, because it’s the way He’s transforming the world. He’s redeeming this place one broken, messy, forgetful human heart at a time.
What even is Christianity but a way that God transforms our humanness by invading it with Himself. He fills our humanity with Divinity. That is the only way we are transformed. It’s not by mustering up more humanity and more of a mess to slap on top of our already messy selves. It’s about realizing that we actually can do nothing.
I know that this world of self-empowerment hates that. But it’s true. We really aren’t good for much without Him. But when He sets our hearts on fire with a purpose He can do incredible things through us. In that light, believing in yourself looks more like believing in your Creator who didn’t make a mistake.
You may have anxiety and you may battle depression. You may struggle with eating-disorders and you may hate your body. You might be walking through a season where you feel like a really lousy person and label yourself hypocritical for calling yourself a Christian.
It is the most beautiful of ironies that your weaknesses somehow become catalysts for the power of God to overtake your life.
I tend to over complicate things and find reasons for what I struggle with. But the reality? I am human in the rawest form, and I’ll never find answers in my humanity. I have to look to something greater. I have to realize it’s actually pretty simple: I am human and I need Him.
I dare you to be bold enough to ask God to use you right in the middle of your mess. Right in the middle of your weaknesses, ask Him to step in and breathe His love into your humanity. And when you ask, be prepared. He loves to use the messiest, most-human, people.