I know you are confused.
You think that if you could just have the answers, you could be at peace.
You think that if everything fell into place the way your heart wanted it and you had your way then your life would be complete and fulfilled. That if the unexpected stopped suffocating you then you could breathe again.
You just want the answers. You want to come up for air, but you took a plunge so deep you’re not sure you can get back to the surface.
You want what you think you need to feel complete.
You are blindsided by what you never thought would come true and your mind is running a hundred miles an hour in every possible direction. You are questioning yourself and wondering if everything is your fault and if you could’ve acted differently to change it all. I know you–I see you–and sometimes, I am you.
It is as if we think that seeing the whole picture could make us happy. We want that thing that God has and that Eve wanted: knowledge–of everything. But what we don’t get is that our limited minds can’t understand plans that great and big and powerful.
He gives us what we need. & what we need is the assurance that He is walking with us through each and every day, ever present, always faithful.
He gives us what we need. & what we need is the confidence that we are His: chosen, loved, worthy, beautiful, and filled with His power.
He gives us what we need. & what we need is not more confirmation from the world or approval from people: it’s the knowledge that nothing can shake us from His love or startle away His opinions of us.
He gives us what we need. & what we need is not clarity as to why something happened the way it did, what we need is the face of Jesus.
He gives us what we need. & as beautiful as His gifts are, sometimes we simply just need Him–all else stripped away.
So even if you are confused. Even if you are hurt, broken, healing, happy, motivated, discouraged, or filled with joy–even if you think you are too far. I know that sometimes it is easy to believe you cannot handle what He has for you in this season. But even still, He will give you what you need. Because you simply need Him, and as painful as it can be when He takes everything else away, it will be the most beautiful thing that will happen to you.