What is it about all that we think we want, all that God wants, and how the two collide?
It’s a painful collision. When what we had planned is dashed against the rocks of His strength and goodness. When our plans collide with the sovereignty of an all-powerful God.
There’s a thing about disappointments and broken dreams and dashed expectations. They hurt. Often times, they cause us to doubt our God. We build up all that we think we want and want for our lives–and then the weight of reality wrecks us: we’re not in the place we would expect.
It’s not the school we had expected.
Or the church, or the person, or the friend.
It’s not the ideal job, or the perfect relationship-
but really, it’s absolutely opposite of all we expected.
The unexpected has captivated me lately. (maybe that’s why 90% of my blog posts revolve around this topic 😉 ) Why God lets it happen, why our hopes in certain things are wrecked, and why we come to the place where with all our hearts, we’re pleading with our God and asking “God, what are you doing?”
Our doubt is fed by dashed expectations.
We let ourselves believe that God is not good. We may deny it-but why are our hearts confused? Why are we not overflowing with His joy? Why are we not EXCITED for LIFE?
Maybe it’s this:
we haven’t fed our emotions with the truth. The truth of God’s goodness. We haven’t preached it to our fading hearts each morning as we should. We haven’t soaked it in and let it consume all that we are.
You’re emotions take what you feed them. So feed them the truth. Start now, today:
God is good.
His plans are good.
Because God is good, what He is doing in your life is GOOD. When it hurts, when it’s confusing. It is good.
My circumstances will never be perfect,
but my God will always be.
Preach that to your heart every morning when you wake up. It may be the last thing you feel right now, but I promise, when His grace wrecks you, it all breaks through in a beautiful, overwhelming joy.
We’ll soak it in and by believing the goodness of our God, our entire perspective on life will be changed.
Our perspective on trials will never be the same.
Our perspective on the unknown will be altered.
“In the breaking of every habit, someone wills it first and feels it later”
My greatest fear used to be not knowing. Not knowing what tomorrow would hold, not knowing if I would get what I want, not knowing if I would experience my definition of living.
Why is it that I think I know what would bring me the greatest joy, when my God has been preparing the deepest joy possible for me since before I was born, if I would only surrender?
It’s been a beautiful wrecking of grace that has showed me: I don’t actually want what I think I want, unless it’s what God wants for me.
It’s been a beautiful wrecking of grace that has showed me: wrapping my heart up in fear of the future is actually me crying out, “God, I want your job.”
But I’ve been liberated. I don’t have to be God. I don’t have to do His job. I am His daughter. Liberated. Freed. Excited.
And now my greatest fear today is this:
wasting my life because I’m wallowing in what I want and why God isn’t giving it to me–instead of searching God’s Word so my heart can explode with joy at the incredibly perfect plans He has for me.
This is it, this is what I want to live for-
I long for what He wants for me.
There is no fear of the future in my heart, but unbridled excitement, anticipation that God’s incredible plans for me have already begun.
I’m going to chase down what He wants for me-because I don’t want my plans anymore. I’m surrendered to a God who has better things in store
Join me in destroying your fear of the unknown, by believing what is known:
My God is good and all His ways are perfect.
(( say it to your heart ))
Exchange the unknown future for His known love.
love & grace,